"Francois Rabelais. He was a poet. And his last words were "I go to seek a Great Perhaps." That's why I'm going. So I don't have to wait until I die to start seeking a Great Perhaps."
- John Green (Looking For Alaska)
So this weekend was my birthday. I am now officially 16 years old. It made me start thinking: number 1) Holy crap, I'm leaving in less than five months; and number 2) When was the moment I said, "Okay, I'm going for this."
I've been around my family and friends a lot over the past few days, and I realized for my next birthday I won't have all of them with me; I'll be with my new family and friends. Also, I realized I've got A LOT of work to do before I leave. I still need to get better at Italian, and finish my online US History course. If I could find time, taking English 11 would be great so I won't have to worry about it when I come back. I'm going to camp, and spending time with my family. We're going on a couple trips this summer. One to Virginia so I can look at a college I'm interested in, and go to a Jack's Mannequin concert! Another to Cedar Point, an amusement park in Ohio with 16 huge roller coasters. I'm really looking forward to both of those.
After thinking about it, I realized the turning point for me was in early December when I read a book by John Green titled Looking For Alaska. It is a book about a boy named Miles, nicknamed Pudge, who decides to go to boarding school to search for his 'Great Perhaps.' Which to him means searching for that magical experience, something that changes you. He doesn't want to wait until he dies to find whatever that may be. It inspired me to do the same. Carpe diem, right? Who wants to wait that long? Nobody, It just takes some people longer to find their Great Perhaps than others.
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